I know what you're thinking. I'm too fat. I just had a baby. I need to lose ten pounds. I don't look good in front of a camera. My hair is too long, too short, too curly, too straight. I'm so pale, too tanned, too...
I get it. I feel you. No, I really do. I used to think the same things. I have battled with the inner demons and shame of who I was and my body for a long time. It's not quite my fault that I did, or that you do. The media has an uncanny way of making us unworthy and unloveable in our own skins.
But then, after much stress and struggles, I shifted inside. I started asking what if.
What if I was beautiful?
What if my body was what is supposed to be?
What if I looked just the way I should?
In the process of asking what if, I began noticing the love in my husbands eyes. I started hearing the giggles my children made when my long curls caressed their face. I began to look in the mirror and see myself as who I was today. A woman and a mother of three with the scars to prove it. More than the cellulite on my thighs, I realized that I was a woman who deserved love, craved connection, and wanted to be seen.
Here's the thing, you don't really see yourself the way you should. Admit it! Your monkey brain takes over anytime someone points a camera at you because you're not in control. Our selfie society has you thinking you should be photographed from high above with duck lips. I am here to tell you that's not beautiful.
What is beautiful is who you are in this moment without the duck lips.
-because you can't see what your supposed to see
-because you're missing out on the beauty your spouse sees everyday
-because you're bypassing the twinkle in your children's eyes when they see you for vanity's sake, not your own self preservation or worthiness.
When you move beyond the ego, the negative voice in your head, and the warped sense of what your outward self should look like, you reach your heart. It is there, on the inside, that lies your true beauty. That's what everyone who loves you sees. And that's what I will capture.
Let me photograph You ...because you deserve true, real, and authentic images of who you are now.
Kati, I just wanted you to know how much fun I had and to thank you for reminding this busy Mom that I can still be sexy and sassy. I was nervous about the photo shoot but I was surprised by how easy it was to just let go and enjoy the experience.
Thank you Katiusca for making this possible. Learning to embrace who I am was easy with you behind the lens!
I think Katiusca's work is perfection. I loved getting my make-up and hair styled professionally. I liked that I was able to take different shots in different outfits! Katiusca is fun to work with, professional and is very knowledgeable in all aspects of photography!